After noting that her balance is declining rapidly and her muscles in her legs are quite weak making her walking risky, a walker was suggested. And when I bathe her she has trouble standing up in the shower so a chair would make it more comfortable.
So I did some research and ordered online. After clicking the "purchase" button - Amazon strategically showed me suggestions for purchases based on my previous shopping. It stopped me in my tracks, how different my life is. What do normal 26 year olds shop for?
Good books about romance, pool floaties for when I lived in San Diego, plastic wine tumblers, and a camera lens for my DSLR were the suggestions.
I wouldn't ever change the opportunity to care for my young Mother as I have grown significantly, learned the value of our lives more than many ever get to, and given back to her just a morsel of the care and love she gave me.
I do wonder sometimes what life was like just a year ago - it seems so far away. Moments like today when my suggested shopping list is far off from my new reality remind me to just breathe and accept the journey.
So touching, Ashley. Your words exude such a depth of wisdom and understanding. You and your mom are in the prayer PJ and I say together everyday.
ReplyDeleteYour mama is so lucky to have you, Ashley, just as you are blessed to have her as your mama!
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